Nothing is Sacred Anymore

the young are misunderstood, we are
misrepresented so we never suprise them
we just keep to our old ways but what if
what if we replaced
disguise for the truth

what if we never knew
what a needle could do?






while you block out the world
with your ductape you best friend
cries herself to sleep

I don't know

beginning to curl up into myself
and shut you all out
every voice becomes a distant cry
and i tend to dissapear
when i cant deal


oh id like to dissapear
id like to

nothing more

darling you're not a pretty doll
you're just a mannequin

Happy Blog

I realised that most of my blogs are written when i am upset or angry over something. i really think i should change this because it makes me look like some crazed moody depressed person... which i am not.

This will be my happy blog because right now i am very happy. Today i spent the day with my sister which was fun since we havent hung out in a long time. then i went to church and saw helen and we hung out after church which was really good =) and now im hyperactive because i had some coffee. but im feeeling good. the best ive felt in ages :D not quite sure why but hey im not complaining.

The Party

If i was to throw a party i would invite you. i dont know you but i know i would invite you.

and you would bring some food and an awesome presant even though you dont know me, but you would.

and we'd dance to the cd you bought me that was my favourite even though you didnt know it was my favourite, but it was.

and you'd tread on my feet but i wouldnt mind, and you knew that even though i never told you.

and i gave you butterflys but you never told me, i just knew it.

you told me the sweetest thing but i never heard you say it, i just knew it had been said.

and we both felt the same, but we never mentioned feelings. we just knew it was right.

i dont know you and yet you are my closest friend.

i have never met you and yet i know everything about you.

you never said a word but i know your darkest secrets.




meet me at the party.

guess im finding out

im more fragile than i thought

Division

Hostility escapes me

Pervasive thoughts linger

Anger is the colour of my veins

Anger is the colour of my open wounds

Home Sweet Home

Im back from my vacation in Mexico. Yesterday was good- i got to see my best friend again =)
I feel a little unerved right now because no matter how much people told me things haven't changed, they have. It kind of feels like being woken up from a coma and everyone has changed while you remain the same. It makes me uneasy. I thought i knew exactly what to expect. I thought it would be like i never left. Why does everything feel so foreign?

It all goes somewhere

It's amazing how easily we give things away
Pieces of ourselves, who we are
Is it because we just don't care?
Or maybe because we care too much...

Is this what you want?

all these girls with pretty names

theyre all the same

theyre all the same

do they fill that crevasse

or do they carve more hollows from your chest?

is this what you want?

is this what you want?

do you look for me in everything?

because you know we fit

you know we fit

i could pull you out from underneath

but you pull the darkness over your head

is this what you want?

is this what you want?

Pretty Words

Insignificant

they tell me with their eyes
they say pretty words
but i know it's all lies
chasing images within the cavaties
of my mind
fractions of twisted events
is all i can find

IM NOT WORTH YOUR TIME.

Dry Bones

i am dry bones and dehydrated life
and you are blocking my view
yet i can't see without you